Sometimes when you’re in a dark place you think you’ve been buried,
but actually you’ve been planted. ~ Christine Caine
Our mother used to tell us when we were kids that she didn’t care if we grew up and dug ditches, as long as it was good, honest work. Well, I can say I’ve done a lot of digging in my life, and mostly it was holes that I dug—in front of where I was walking!
I’d dig a hole…and fall in, and while I was trying to climb out, I’d dig myself in deeper.
When I finally climbed out, I’d turn around and fall back in.
After great effort, out again I’d come, bruised and battered. And maybe some time would go by before I forgot the hole and fell in again.
Some of those holes were deep! Deep and dark and cold. A few of them amounted to abysses. And several I lived in for a long, long time.
Sounds monotonous, doesn’t it? I was my own worst enemy! It took me a great while to learn my life lessons. I do know now that I’d rather avoid the crevasses, in the future and certainly the nearly bottomless pit.
With the coming of the new year, many people make resolutions. Instead of setting myself up for possible failure, I think I’ll just write down some thoughts to remember. Guidelines, like allowing. Simply allowing.
- Allowing blocked energy (which creates pain) to flow out of me. (This will take practice.)
- Allowing Spirit to guide me.
- Remembering the grace that I live in as a fish lives in water, and allowing goodness to flow to me. (This will take mindfulness).
- Allowing myself to take risks, without worrying over results that turn out not-so-successful.
I know how to allow myself to be me, but I also feel Spirit nudging me to grow into a bigger, more “out there” me, a Spirit-Aware Self. (This will take both mindfulness and practice.)
I was brought up to serve, but maybe it’s time to allow the fruits of my labor to come to me. It may be time to allow that life is not all struggle and hard work, but pleasant. A joy that yields many smiles.
Yes, enough of the holes. More than enough of the hells. Let’s move on to Hallelujah!
And if you need a reason to smile, oh, do contact me. I’ve plenty of ropes and ladders, and hugs that bind better than bandages.